December 2007
9 posts
Away.
At times when I have no words I use those of others to understand why my head feels full. There’s a trigger, and it hits sometimes hard, sometimes soft, but it hits when I hear someone else telling me why I feel full, and heavy. I remember the way Driving home late Speeding all the way Alone in the rain I was rehearsing a part From down at the bar My mouth smelled like a drink We were...
Calculate the difference.
Looking back is important. I mean, by looking back we gain the opportunity to better ourselves. We, in looking back, open ourselves to the chance that we can become stronger people. right? All I find in looking back, reflecting, is misery, but further on, perhaps some insight. Really. I am not trying to be dismal here, I am speaking truth. I have found this year, that I have missed opportunities,...
Merry fucking Christmas
I have this feeling, and I don’t understand it. It’s part sadness, part regret, and part pure anger. I always say “I have no regrets” but really you’re the only one and every time it comes to mind it hurts like nothing else ever has. I don’t really understand it. And oh you. Fuck, you were glad to get me out of that part of your life. I have half a mind of...
Hypocrite.
I sometimes wonder where my head is. Is it really on my shoulders, or my neck rather, because sometimes it seems far away? Taking my brain with it as it floats into space. Why do I do these things? Why do i do these things that I know will only cause me pain. They will only make me upset, but still, I send the message and make the calls, and its never how I expected it to turn out. I could...
If you think this is about you, you're wrong.
My response to every event currently occuring in my life:
“Well, I don’t know what I expected…”
Hang under
You know you’re hungover when:
You start yelling at the healing tool; verbally abusing it for not sampling from the area that you feel is the closest match in colour and tone, and then slowly realize that you are on “create texture”, not “proximity match”
This is also the moment in which you are solidified as the biggest nerd of all time.
One of my final,...
Clouds
I mean, it’s a relief. Everything that takes any weight off my shoulders is these days because, I’ll tell ya, there’s a lot of weight on those. I should really go to the chiropractor. maybe. And so, I mean, I can’t exactly be thankful, and I can’t really be upset because I asked for it all. I asked for everything, and in some cases, I was wise enough to hand it...
I'm not asking I'm telling.
Somedays my brain works this way.
I feel like I did you wrong by reacting the way I did. But I was scared, I’m sorry.
But now on days like this where you won’t leave my mind and I find myself thinking back, I can’t focus on the mean things you said and the evil things you did. Maybe they weren’t evil, and you weren’t that mean, but you weren’t nice either....
